There is a naturally ebb and flow to everything in nature; to observe such one can merely look to the ocean, watching the water close and draw from the shore. However the application of such is far more subtle when viewing human nature. Long ago I came to the conclusion that we as humans all have our paradoxes, a life of two distinct sides of our personalities. This weekend I encountered the duality of my own psyche,which could perhaps be best described as rationally out of control. The two sides of my life one of health, fitness, and education the other a seemingly hot mess of a party. As confusing as my statements may appear it is only through the recognition of one's own nature can we truly feel comfortable with our desires and true wants. So as the party winded down Saturday evening and my bed called me home, only to sleep alone for the first time in days I felt a sense of peace sweep over my psyche.
On another note I'm still waiting for Makana to make his initial post; it should be up soon, so keep on reading.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
The New World
It is often funny to reflect upon the notions and beliefs we held in our youth. As long as I can remember I have been restless in spirit, the behavior of a man searching for meaning and comfort in the confusion of early adulthood. I have predicated a lifestyle around being good looking, educated, and successful; however upon introspection of such have often found my pursuits listless, leaving me further disconnected and perhaps emotionally distant. Hedonism is perhaps the apt term to which describe my venture of self-discovery.
The selfishness that resulted in consequence to this behavior disgusts me, however I have not at all been unhappy with it. With roughly two weeks remaining on island I thoroughly ready to embark on a new journey, a search for meaning in the heat and sand of Iraq. As my psyche is left to ponder the possibilities I feel little concern for myself but rather an increased focus on the welfare of my men; filled with renewed hope that I have made the right decision and will ultimately be justified in my professional decision as an Army Officer. It is clear to me now that I can change for the better and positively affect the world we live. Now eagerly awaiting the journey I am reminded of a poem once written by Mark Twain that describes my own personal aspirations of the upcoming deployment…
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
The selfishness that resulted in consequence to this behavior disgusts me, however I have not at all been unhappy with it. With roughly two weeks remaining on island I thoroughly ready to embark on a new journey, a search for meaning in the heat and sand of Iraq. As my psyche is left to ponder the possibilities I feel little concern for myself but rather an increased focus on the welfare of my men; filled with renewed hope that I have made the right decision and will ultimately be justified in my professional decision as an Army Officer. It is clear to me now that I can change for the better and positively affect the world we live. Now eagerly awaiting the journey I am reminded of a poem once written by Mark Twain that describes my own personal aspirations of the upcoming deployment…
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
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